Day 6 And NO Migraine

Guys, I think the CBD oil is working! I’m still skeptical.  Time will tell.  But in the mean time I’m celebrating 6 migraine free days. Truly surprised.  I’ve tried every next best thing. In the past there has been a couple meds that worked for a short period of time and then petered out. Nothing preventative has worked. My abortives sometimes work.

Besides no migraines, there have been no nausea.  There has also been no more cannabis for me.  I’m pro-pot, don’t get me wrong. I’ll get some more eventually just for an occasional puff or two. But the vaping has help tremendously with that.

Oh yeah, did I mention….NO appetite.

I’m taking the higher dose of sublingual tincture I can find around here which is 1000 mg and using a lower concentration for vaping.  I’ve been enjoying using the vape rather than smoking weed.  Plus I’m still getting some additional CBD.

Anxiety.  I’ve had several recent issues that normally would have triggered a migraine. There was crying involved. And stress. About my kids. One in particular. I did take some anxiety medication as directed by my psyche lady. Tonight I have about a 3/10 level headache.  Nothing I’d take anything for. Grabbed an ice pack. I will hopefully fall asleep and it will be gone in the morning.

I swear this blog is about more than CBD oil. But tomorrow I’m going to review the three brands I’ve tried so far.

 

Crunchy Essential Oils A Cure For All

I don’t have a migraine today.  No kind of headache actually.  I’m crossing my fingers for a miracle cure of the CBD oil.

But because I’m cursed, today my fibro is flaring up.  I had a stressful situation last night which reeeally stressed me out and I think it triggered it. I have pain in my leg, hip and back.

One thing that has helped in the past is frankincense oil. The ingredients can work for a variety of problems. They act like an analgesic.  It doesn’t have a hot feeling like other topicals.  And no bengay.  This stuff smells great.

It contains three homeopathic ingredients and 10 essential oils.  Frankincense, cinnamon, bergamot, lemon, myrrh, eucalyptus, peppermint,  nutmeg, geranium and rosemary. Whew.  It helps with a quartet (at least) of symptoms like numbness, tingling, shocking and pricking.  It helps my husbands back and hip.  Once he had a HUGE knot that felt like a large baseball on his lower back.  I could move it around.  First I had to calm down and reassure myself that no, this isn’t a tumor. It’s a knot.

I gave him a very deep tissue massage with this oil. It started to help immediately with the pain.  He’s such a skeptic but he was impressed that it worked some. It didn’t take away all the pain but it helped.  I kneaded that for two more days and it resolved.  Big lump gone! Highly recommend this stuff!

Noob Vaper. My CBD Oil and What I’ve Learned So Far.

I decided to do a review of a new vaporizer I purchased for my CBD oil after the first cheap crappy one I originally was sold.  I hope this helps someone else.  I am FAR FAR from an expert but this is what I’ve learned so far. The head shop didn’t have a selection.  The vape store did.

First thing to know is that the milligrams in the bottle is for the entire bottle. I originally got a 250 mg tincture which worked out to about 8 mg per dropper. It didn’t last long because I was using about 3 droppers full. I didn’t find it real helpful at all with the low dose.

I do have chronic pain from my fibro (or lymes…..could be) and I have the chronic migraines.  I’d say I have a high pain tolerance too. I don’t use opiods for my headaches and weed helps to take the edge off sometimes. I have two prescriptions that work ok some of the time.

We have a local vape store that I dared to go into with my husband.  I had that cheap vape pen and we were looking for something for him because he had a really good result with just the CBD oil.  He has neck/back/hip pain and takes tylenol and advil round the clock.  He also is a cigarette smoker.

I wanted to get him something CBD without THC and since he’s a smoker we figured we’d kill two birds with one stone and get some of the nicotine too.  Maybe it could help him quit or reduce his smoking. They were super nice and he’s been using his vaporizer since Sunday. It’s taking some tweaking to get the e-juice mix right.  They CBD kills his appetite so he asked me to lower that and increase the nicotine.  I did that and today he told me he thinks that ratio I did was too light on the CBD because his pain is back.  We’re working with droppers and it’s not really an exact science.

After testing out his new vaporizer I decided I need one of those. The cheapie took forever to charge and didn’t even last a day. So, being the impulsive being that I am ran back to the store yesterday for my own quality vaporizer. The guy who helped me recognized me from coming in with my husband and was so nice.  I always worry about other people’s opinion of me.  They must think I’m fat…they are staring at the circles under my eyes. UGH.  Anyway!

The Aspire Pockex was recommend.  This thing is great. It charges super fast. They have many pretty colors but I needed the rainbow 🙂 It comes with a charger and even an extra coil to replace as I guess this is a replaceable part.  They also carried all the extra parts.

You can tell it’s well made and high quality.  The only thing I wished were different was that it were a little more quiet.  It makes a quiet crackling sound that the cheapie didn’t.  Probably because it heats the oil properly. At any rate here’s my new crutch…I mean vaporizer.

The biggest change is that I’m no longer smoking the flowers. I have a bit left for a few hits if I want here or there but I’m not smoking as much as I was. Normally I have plenty to last me two weeks or so. It’s been over a week and I haven’t gotten more. I should note that my husb does not partake in those flowers, though he wishes he could.  He is subject to random testing so none of that for him.

It also has KILLED my appetite and I LOVE it. I don’t know if its the taste of the vape or the action of vaping but I’m eating way less and not snacking at all. HUGE change.  I was never a cigarette smoker but I’m loving vaping the CBD oil, especially while I chill at night in bed.  No smoke! The vapor smells good.  And maybe others notices this but watching the smoke really relaxes me.  It’s almost kinda like hypnotizing.  It has helped me sleep for sure. We will have to see how the cost compares to my other stuff.

I need to get another sublingual tincture. I can get a higher dose more easily instead of vaping as much as you’d have to do to get that dosage. It takes many puffs of the vape to equal even 8 mg. Those are kind of like micro doses.  I mistakenly thought that vaping would be stronger but that’s not the case. It does get in there quicker though. Noob.

You can find all kinds of info on doses online.  I’ve read for mild pain to take 8 mg a day, medium pain is 22 mg and severe pain 27 mg.  I AM NOT A DOCTOR and just trying to find my way through all the info!  I’m learning as I go!

Also, I should tell you that there are three companies who give a big discounts to people on disability and Veterans too.  Nuleaf, Bluebird and Lazurus Naturals. All of these brands are high quality with lab results to back up their product. I haven’t personally tried these brands and I’m not affiliated with them THOUGH I’D LOVE TO BE 🙂 I plan to order when I run out of my bottle.

Because there are so many companies out there you want to make sure they have lab results for the product showing how much CBD is in there product and you also want to know how it’s made. I’m still learning about that part. There are several ways and some are better than others.  There is full spectrum which is the whole plant in it and have around 3% THC and the more pure kind which has no THC at all. Got the husb the a brand that was pure CBD.

(if you got this far) Without further ado…my pretty new vaporizer. Solid construction, charger, replacement part and holds 2ml of your e-liquid. It was $30.00.

   

 

 

 

 

 

Damn Migraines.

Migraine and I go way back. I was a small child when I was cursed this lifelong invisible illness. I cannot remember a time when I didn’t have them.  They happen, I treat them. Sometimes with moderate success and sometimes like this damn week I cannot escape them. Ice is my best friend.

It’s so hard to have patience while testing out a new med or treatment especially being hopeful that this is the one that will work. Nothing preventative has really worked for me. I’ve tried this impressive list of treatments, medications, therapies, etc.  I might be missing some. If you’ve got something else to add please comment.

Without further ado, my impressive list…..

  • meditation
  • biofeedback
  • acupunctture
  • acupressure
  • aromatherapy
  • moxibuctiion
  • black seed oil
  • fish oil
  • magnesium, riboflavin, vit d.
  • skull cap, valerian root (instant super bad headache with the valerian root
  • standard migraine meds: topamax, blood pressure meds, ergotomines, anti seizure,  anti anxiety, anti psychotics, muscle relaxing meds
  • low dose naltrexone
  • feverfew
  • chiropractic
  • ashwanga root
  • tens unit
  • nerve block
  • botox
  • massage
  • volteron gel
  • weed
  • and various things I’m forgetting.

 

Heady Harvest

So, two weeks ago I got myself my first little bottle of the new thing on the block…CBD oil.  I’ve written about it a little bit here and here.  I’m hearing more and more about it so I figured it was time to try.

My first bottle was from Hemplucid 250 mg (in the entire bottle).  I didn’t research much about the various strengths and never considered vaping at that point. My thought was by mouth was the most natural. The flavor was very organic, nutty and weedy.

I got only slight relief of a migraine after taking about three droppers (or 3 ml) full which was about 24 mg. I will admit I was disappointed in the result after I tried with my migraines all last week.  I first thought it might have been triggering them but they continued after I stopped so it wasn’t the oil. The dosages for pain are much higher I’m learning.

My husband tried it for his back pain and he really felt a difference. He’s concerned that he may get picked for a random drug test and doesn’t want to come up + for THC.  I find it highly unlikely it would but it is a risk. The 100% THC products are super expensive. It seems all of the brands I’ve looked at say THC level is <.03.

Today my husband took me to a glass shop. I was nervous going because I wasn’t really sure exactly what I wanted or needed.  I’m a noob, plus anxiety. I didn’t want to look dumb and and embarrass myself blushing in front of a hipster stoner dude. Turns out it was a girl and she was super welcoming and nice!  They had several regular CBD oils that you take sublingual and the concentrates.

I was there for the concentrate and decided vaping might work better for me.  I got the “disposable” vape with the 750mg cartridge. I got the pineapple flavored but there were others as well as lower strenghs.

So I paid $50 for the cartridge/pen tip thing which has the oil and the actual pen vape thingee was 15.00. I didn’t think it was too bad.  A little over my weekly “flower” budget but maybe it will last longer.  I’m not sure how or if I will save money vaping.

I always hate when I run out of flowers.  I think I will order the refills on line or send hubs into the shop since he passes it on his way to and from work! Win, win. 🙂

I’ve been definitely puffing on the vape this afternoon.  My headache has decreased a lot. I feel better.  Maybe it’s a start.

Help, I’ve fallen And I can’t Get Up

She called this morning I’m sure because I have had a migraine all week. Yeah they are benign but they still effect my life and moms don’t want their kids to be in pain.  I can get through it thought. It’s a fact of life and there is no real hope for them to miraculously leave.  I remember a little while ago she confessed how sorry she was to give me these headaches and she’d take them for me if she could.  It’s not her fault.  I have some sort of fucked up brain and i can usually fix it if i have my meds.  I take too many for them (but with my doctors ok) but they help. I haven’t gone to the ER in years for a migraine which is really discouraged anyway.  We are drug seekers. And I don’t use opiates, btw.

While I was talking I tried not to cry but I broke down.  I explained it isn’t even the migraines.  It’s the ugly.  She reassured me as moms will do. I am not ugly.  I am beautiful.  Then she asked if she could stop over which I don’t usually like because of the status of my house. .  We have an issue where she is a freaking, anal, meticulous cleaner which is a whole other post and my complete opposite.  I see her eyes wandering over my house. Sometimes a little comment.  I know what she’s thinking.  I wish I could  be like her and my sister and best friend.  As best as I can try it’s never the same. BUT….I’ve been so much better these past few months.

Still feeling ugly, avoiding a mirror But for the past week I immediately put on a moisturizer right after I bushed my teeth.  Now I should probably wash  my face first but baby steps.  I don’t have a lot of wrinkles  just my eyes. Those damn crows feet.  But if I could fix one thing it would be to make over my eyes.

I’m  down this week about 5 pounds so this is huge for me, Reducing the fat pill has helped.  I can live with it the  little dose but who knows if it even does anything,  I’m still taking it until this new med is well on board which is ok because my appetite is now back to fairly norma or at least half  that it was with the med.

So this morning I fell/rolled out my bed. WTF? I sat up and then tumbled back. I waited for a moment for my husband to say OMG are you alright.  And I sat for a few more seconds I stumbled out the living room getting ready to leave for work.

When I mentioned to my son that I fell out of bed this morning he said “Oh, that was the crash I heard.”

🙂

 

 

When Meds Don’t Work

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Super terrible very bad day ending on a reflective note. The calm after the storm. I spent the afternoon laying in bed with ice on my neck and a cold wash cloth on my forehead.  Just like when i was a little girl. It’s my one go to. It’s my one comfort. I was there for several hours dozing on and off.  I sleep with my knees up when I have a migraine.  I have no idea why but I noticed my daughter does the same thing. Maybe she learned from me? As the pain increased I tried a wicked hot shower which really didn’t do anything.  Sometimes if it’s not too bad it can help.

mj3I tried the CBD oil and I did get some relief from it for a short time.  I need a bigger strength.  I tried a little later but I only had about half a dose so it didn’t help.  I wondered if it provoked a migraine earlier this week but I’m giving it time.

My husb came home around five. It’s difficult to talk or yell when I have a bad migraine. I mummble as little words as I can but I was able to call out from my room. He gave me a back, nape of the neck massage. A reassuring voice.  This is a tension/migraine.

I took two more fiorcet as it had been hours since the first dose.  My bottle says 1-2 per day/per headache.  One never works anymore.  I used to use one along with an excedrine, but that doesn’t help. Now I use two and it helps with a more mild migraine vs a super bad one. My triptan is my gold standard.  I’m out tonight. It usually brings it down to a 3 or less.

One things about my migraines is I never lie about them. I don’t use it for an excuse to get out of doing the dishes or the laundry or go visit my mum.  I feel like that would be jinxing things. KARMA. I don’t like heath jinxs if you know what I mean.  When I was working I never used it as an excuse either unless I was truly unable to go work or had to leave. I worked through hundreds of migraines, running into the rest room to throw up and sitting at my desk with my lights off and head down during lunch.

Anyway, the kids are out tonight and it’s just me and the husb.  He isn’t hungry and I’m nauseous so we spent “dinner time” quietly chatting in bed.  He is so supportive despite all the things he doesn’t do right :-). He helps me feel safe and gets me what I need…ice, meds, something to drink while I lay in the darkened room. But he layed down with me and he talked about his day and I complained about my fucking head pain.  He never complains, always believes. This man is my soulmate.

After the second dose of my PRN med which didn’t do anything I tried a klonapin.  I’m kind of blurry and chatty now. it’s still there and my ice packs are waiting to freeze up again. Maybe I’m relaxing some.  Maybe I’m just stoned with a migraine. :shrug:mj4

If it happens to go away by tomorrow morning, the lingering effects….the postdrome hangover will stick around so it will be a very quiet day for me. Everyone is at work tomorrow.  My house is clean, laundry done, dishwasher loaded so no worries about that. I can sleep in but probably wont. The pup will need feeding and potty-ing. I’ll need a coffee. Other than that I’m laying low and I WILL NOT feel guilty.

Maybe.

Migraines For Dayz

Am I ever gonna stop writing about migraines? It’s been four days.  Maybe I’m in a rebound phase. I know about atmospheric changes but I’m not familiar with snow doing it.  Maybe that’s it.  My triptan had helped for a little bit yesterday but I’m out and you can only use it once per day though you can repeat it about an hour if it’s not effective.  Man, they give you like 9 pills and it’s supposed to last the month or they say you’re using it too much.

I cannot take excedrine any more.  Perhaps maybe very, very sparingly with food and zantac or something. It wrecks my stomach for days after. If I use it two days in a row or twice in a day my stomach kills me for a week.

I’ve got my ice. I’m in my room trying to chill without any noise. I took my anti-nausea medication.,  Maybe it’s a good time to try the CBD oil again since nothing is helping and my second line med isn’t helping.  I just took about 16 mgs (which is quite low).

I initially tried the CBD oil and a preventative.  I seemed to have a headache the entire time i was testing it so I stopped it thinking it may have been triggering them. I gave it to my husband who has some joint, disc and nerve problems and he said it absolutely worked.  Unfortunately he has random drug testing at work and he’s afraid it will show up. The percentage of THC in the oils is < 3% which to me seems like nothing.  It’s legal. But if it sets off a positive drug test it wont be good. I was having him try it for a few days before he began to think of the consequences so now he doesn’t want to try again unless we get an brand with 0% THC.  And it’s expensive…they all are.

There is no magic cure for me. I’ve tried so many things from regular meds to holistic medicine and therapies over the years.

Just a little frustrated today.  Sorry for the  bummer of a post.  Thanks for reading ❤

 

 

Twelve Facts About Me

Facts about the spinster:

  1. I’m not really a spinster.
  2. I suffer from bipolar disorder, migraines and anxiety.
  3. Currently on disability.
  4. +BRCA2
  5. Marijuana supporter.
  6. Dog lover. Please rescue.
  7. I’m obsessed with cats but mine loves my husband.
  8. Former crafter…knit, crochet, sew, embroider.
  9. Now that my mania is under control I have no interest in any of it.
  10. Sometimes I bake bread.
  11. I’m a nurse by profession.
  12. I’ve spent way to much time trying to come up with this list!

Migraine Alternatives

spinsterYesterday after talking with my husband and with his encouragement I went and picked up that little bottle of CBD oil by Hemilucid. I just hate spending money on something that might not work. I wish I had read dosage charts first though. I think my shop had two strengths and I grabbed the lowest dosage which is what you’re supposed to start with anyway.  For acute pain like a migraine the dosages should be higher.

The taste…very weedy, nutty tasting but not super strong.  I can easily hold it under my tongue for a minute or so and it doesn’t make me gag or anything which was a fear. I don’t feel like i have to hide it in something.

Yesterday I tried the 30 ml dosage (which is aprox 8mg) first to see if it would help with the current migraine. I didn’t notice any change so I repeated the dosage and a half and laid down with ice. It did dull down and by dinner I was able to get up and hang with my family.

It was fun telling both of my boys I picked up some CBD oil.  They were both interested in it and I let them both try it last night. (Both are over 18 not that it matters)  I wondered if it would help son with his anxiety. It made him a little tired he thought but he did have a long day at work. I haven’t had a chance to talk with my other guy about his results.

I’m definitely going to play around with a higher dosage. I want to take it as a preventative so I will work it into my daily routine. I did take the smaller dose this morning and I do have a migraine brewing (again…) UGH.

I just wonder if it’s going to be an expensive alternative to migraine meds. Granted…healthier for sure.  It could eliminate the issues i’ve been having from taking NSAID’s.

I’ll keep you all updated!